A life untitled

A soul untouched,
A spirit unlighted,
A breath unseen,
A thought unheard,
A voice unspoken,
A mind unread, but
A heart forever!

A world lost to her

She used to live in a world; so complete to everyone, and yet so lost to her.
Trying to be what everyone else wanted her to be. But all she wanted was to just live.
Trying to be what she wasn’t destroyed her. Now what’s left of her are the fragile pieces of a once known life.
If life wasn’t enough for her, then why did she cry? Her tears; formed by pain. Happiness once overpowered her pain. But she created a pain that once made her feel good, and then left her crying.
Why did she cut when I got her nowhere and the pain didn’t satisfy her? She used to be addicted to pain, but it wasn’t enough to erase her past.
She used to smile at the world, and laugh at the wonders of life. Her heart once filled with love, her soul was full of joy, and her dreams were so alive. Then she didn’t dream or feel alive anymore.
The world she lived in once was whole, and then everything changed. She changed.

So what happened to this girl?

LIFE.

All I wanted was to live.

I don’t wan to hurt anymore.
I don’t want to breathe.
I don’t want to live.
I don’t want to laugh.
I don’t want to cry.
I don’t want to die.
I don’t want anymore pain.
I don’t want it, but it never stops.

Pain?

I’m in so much pain.
But isn’t pain what I wanted?
To feel more than life.
Or to rid my life of thought.
Is it pain I was looking for?
Or for pain to end my life.
Some days all I can do is cry.
But in reality I’m crying for pain.

Life to Death & Back Again

Life is bound by death.
Deaths a living thing.
Life is wasting away.
Deaths all around.

Without Life

Life is so many things.
And yet without life
there would be no existence.
Life without death isn’t life at all.
You must live to die.
Life without meaning isn’t life at all.
Meaning gives life expectations.
Life without creation isn’t life at all.
Creation inspires us.
Life isn’t life unless you’ve lived.

rewritten

Maybe life isn’t that perfect.
I know mine isn’t.
Perfect doesn’t have to be everything.
If life is so perfect than why do we still wonder?
Maybe everything is supposed to be left unknown.
Unknown to fate. Or just unknown to ourselves.
To be known e must be unknown.
I was once unknown but rewritten is my life.

“X’s & O’s”

Do “x’s” & “o’s” really represent
hugs and kisses or something more?

An “x” is supposed to be the meaning
of life and the “o” is supposed to be
life complete.

But life is not that perfect, so if you
look between, you’ll find the meaning.

Now an “x” is as pure as pain and
The “o” is just the empty soul.

Facing Reality

What’s there to live for when the past keeps haunting you and the future won’t let you in. Maybe it’s the future we’re afraid of, so the past is easier to hold on to. We want something so badly but never get it. Trying to break free but never quite make it. By facing reality we’ve left our fantasy’s and entered a world of truth, pain, love, and destiny. And fate will take us there.

Now What

Why did you have to do it.
Play with my heart
Tell me it would work

Now you turn you back on me.
I have nothing left
You took life from me

So to live, to die.
It doesn’t matter anymore
Cryings all I know now.

After all I did.
I wasn’t enough
My love wasn’t worth it

It’s all a lie and nothing more.

To Feel Something

I don’t feel empty
Yet I feel so incomplete.

Would it hurt to feel something?
Maybe to feel alive. Or maybe
to feel a life worth living.

I’ve always wondered why
Now I don’t have to wonder.

I feel the pain erasing itself
All the emptiness, filling with hope.

I wanted to feel something
Now I fell it.

Feeling

I felt.
Once it was life.
My life.
It was complete.
But now?
I feel nothing.
Why feel?
Life is better left empty.

Will emptiness fill the pain,if crying only brings it?

Why live

I feel so bad, that the pain is haunting me.

The life I used to live was all just a lie.
Sometimes more than lies can tell.

It’s like everything I do is wrong.
Wasn’t being myself enough?

Well I don’t know anymore.
Already I’ve had to change my life.
All I have to say is why did life have to happen to me?

Just let me go

If you don’t want me back then tell me so.
If I can’t have you then just let me go.
Haven’t I suffered enough pain?
By playing with my heart it’s not a game.
I used to strive to live
But now I just live to die.If you just let me go then I’ll be free of pain.

Why Live

Why cry when it wasn’t you fault
Why live when there’s nothing to live for
Why die when you life’s not complete
Why laugh when there’s too much pain
The better left unknown the better life will be.

Empty

The light in my eye,
The lust in my heart,
The spark in my soul,
The joy of my spirit,
The brightness of my smile,
The happiness of my laugh,
Now all gone, all lost, all empty.

Tears in Time

Tears are wasting away,
turning into time.
A time that can’t be beat.
The tears just keep coming,
one right after another.
Time ticks by as tears drip dry.
In time tears will help heal
the broken pieces in life.

Recreating Feeling

I’m screaming inside,
trying to run from myself.

But once I find me,
there’s no turning back.

I’m crying inside,
hopping tears will wash
the pain away.

But to cry you have to
Feel something and all
I feel is pain.

If I feel nothing,then what has pain created?